How to get my life together... I hope

I have been pretty "broken" to say the least lately. The last 4 months have been spent realizing that somewhere I lost myself and gave up a lot of the things that made me special. I have been so lost and confused that I just gave up. My body constantly hurt because I never had the energy to make meals, I didn't exercise, I spent all my time hiding in my basement bedroom because I feel so uncomfortable and unwelcome by our roommates. I stopped going to class because I hated what I was studying, my anxiety was through the roof and everyone wanted something different from me or for me. I wasn't living life for me anymore. Hell I wasn't living I was just coasting. Id wake up to go to my subpar part-time job come home and crawl back to bed and wait till the next day I had a shift. Sure I did little activities, and spent time with some people but I was never really present in those moment I was just there in body.

So I'm moving. Ty and I are packing up and starting over and we are dedicating this move to building a life full of happiness and love. (yes cliche I know)

Tyler and I have transferred to a new university that has both of our dream programs and we are in the process of finding a new apartment. A place just for us to grow, and laugh and build our lives together. (Instead of living with 6 horribly obnoxious, loud and incredibly dirty boys who party till 8am and blast the music whether you have an exam the next morning or not)

Despite how positive this move is, and how excited I am to begin my new program I am still incredibly broken. I know it is going to take a long time to find myself again, or meet a new better version of myself but I sat down today and wrote a list of things I want to start adding back into my life to create a more positive and "me" friendly environment and I thought I would throw it up on here as well. These are all little, very simple things that I used to do daily without out even having to think about them and now I need to retrain myself to start loving myself again. One of my biggest flaws is putting more into other people then I do myself and I really need to find that balance again and I'm hoping these ideas will help me get there.

so here is my "Turn my Life Around" List

• wake up before 10am daily

• eat 3 real meals a day

• drink 4 big bottles of water a day ( my water bottle is huge so change size accordingly)

• go for 30 min walk daily

• sing your heart out everyday for at least 30 mins

• do yoga for 20 mins minimum daily in the morning

• stretch before bed

• go to bed before 11:30 weekdays

• never go to bed holding in anxiety, anger, stress, conflict ect... only ever go to sleep happy and with a clear head!

• laugh and let go of what you cannot control